First Journal Entry                                                October 15, 2002

4:38 am Bah..I know I have tried this before..starting an online journal, always looked like fun..but never could go on with it after three days.. So I'm starting again :-D In other news, I'm going on the 12 Step Road to Recovery...An Overcoming Xena Addiction Program. Ah..I must admit it is tough...really tough...its gunna hurt. But its been two years since the chica was beheaded and butchered China...Its time to move on. I swear I haven't been able to watch other TV shows after Xena. And to be honest, it gets rather boring at times... So here is step one.. Step 1 Consider your decision carefully. Stopping cold turkey is not for everyone. Be aware that, if you choose this option, you run a greater risk of relapse and possible hallucinations involving leather-clad women. There are medications such as tranquilizers available for those who require a subtler 'little by little' approach. (Wish me Luck!) 9:00  I got a picture from my Gabrielle, well her autograph, really. I thought it was cute so I'm gunna post it here :) 10:06 PM Looking ahead to step two, I nearly freaked out! Anything that includes putting things in a large bonfire isnt exactly the best thing to do with such precious xena memorabila. So What am I gunna do about it..eh? Sell em? I dont know.... probably would be best. Music listening to now: nothin Movie Watching: Children of A Lesser God People Im talking to right now: Cat, Seph-mun, Glow

October 16, 2002

10:28 PM Nuh uh..I aint going through this stupid 12 step recovery plan. Im perfectly fine as I am..eh? Being a xena addict isnt exactly horrifying :-P Just ask Gabrielle. (Well, this was *my Gabrielle's* reaction when I told her I was going on the 12 step program. Guess she didnt approve. )

October 17 2002                                               MOODY

1:37 am Locked up And Tied Down 3:08 pm I know I didnt metion this before, but I am at my ex boyfriends apartment, which might explain my locked up and tied down mood. Cuz when I got here..my car broke down and its costing me 755 to fix. Why 755?...dont ask. Now I dont have the money, means I dont have the car..which probably means I'll...at this rate..never go home... Its a 500 mile drive...cripes. Im not e'en tempted to walk that far. And I didnt plan to stay here this long... Sure the scenery is nice. Howie's ma is okay, Howie's behaving....but I'd just like to go home. Dont know how it cannot get any more simpler than that. 3:31 PM Bah...this thing isnt fun when its not connected to the internet. 1 bloody minute my ass.... I hate it when people use the phone and say "one minute"...I mean..they usually take an hour. Im gunna have to learn this new time thing if Im gunna be here any longer. I give it a couple more days...then I'll be tempted to walk home. What a realastic goal..eh? Its not bad around here..I just wanna leave....as I said before. Couple more days here and I'd be brain washed. With all these tv shows and movies they watch...i mean tv shows like ...that 70's show..lame...king of the hill....lamer........guiding light...lamest... I quit being a couch potato in Xena's season 4...I dont wanna go back u.u.. now the movies they watch..a completely different story...thank god this computer is a safe distance away from the tv set. Im a xena manaic...not a couch potato.

October 18, 2002                                     Mood: Cranky

4:39 am Okay, so I am cranky. I haven't slept yet and I have to take a train to Chicago, why..you ask? I'm going to the university there with Howie's mother and uh..hang I guess. Its an hour train ride, then a mile walk to the university. Bah ha ha ha ha..... I'm gunna sleep like the dead tonight...that's if I can stay awake that long.  Wish me luck, I'm gunna need it. 9:15 PM IM STILL AWAKE!...and pratically dead.. ..you can now prounouce me the walking dead. I just finished dinner too, it was my turn to make dinner tonight. Well, I volunteered...I didnt want another pizza :-P Oh yeah..I took some online quizzes out of sheer boredom..here are the results. Which Element Represents You? created by kefkafanatic @ mental insanity Take the Final Fantasy X personality test here! by Find out which Xena guy you are. . Which Old Skewl Xena Character Are You?. Made by: lj user "djnookie"

October 23, 2002

12:02 Sorry I hadnt updated for so long..takes forever to set up my computer these days, network errors, disk errors...bah..name it. Plus I was like wayyyyy too lazy :-D    Well, lets see... on the 20th, my car that was in the shop was finally fixed, had the pulleys near the oil container fixed, spark plugs replaced, another oil change...yes..when I went down to see howie, my car broke down the minute I got there.  Alllllllways fun :-P bah I think not, I spent a week and a half at howies before my car got fixed, my parents paid for the car over the phone, around 800, more than half for labor alone. Bah, well..on the drive up here, it was okay..sure I dozed off once in a while but I found that eating while driving sure helps. Well I tried not to eat too much..and I didnt...cold french fries suck. I finally met my mother and father at the OakWood Mall, we met there because mom and dad needed away from my sister and my "roommate" even if it was just for a couple hours.  Came back and spent the next few days being a bum, and here I am, updating my web page once more. Ne'er anything special happens around here. Music listening to: Melt Into Me                Bitter Suite: Xena SoundTrack You're lost and confused, But I understand. This once beloved friend Has been slain by your hand. You feel all alone, Betrayed and adrift. But maybe her loss Can be viewed as a gift. Now I'll be your rock, Your strength and support. Your close confidant, With whom you can consort. I know you completely, Come melt into me, And unleash the power Of your destiny. You've proved to yourself Now that you've made the kill. That you're just like me, With as evil a will. Our forces are meant To be merged into one, The world will be panicked When our work is done. Let the music of war, With its lustful refrain, Arouse us to heights With a passionate strain. Imagine how awesome Together we'd be. So feel what I'm feeling, Come melt into me. Link of the day: Talking to: Jed, Howie, Gloria, Chris

October 24, 2002

Mood: Bouncy Here you come knockin' on my door baby Tell me what you got on your mind I guess those college boys all went home for the summertime And you're lookin' right, lookin' good,  lookin' like a woman should So why is it so hard to find run down A place to lay your pretty little head down once in a while You run on a little tough luck baby Don't you sweat it Everything is waiting inside for you You know I got it Come and get it Who's your daddy, who's your baby? Who's your buddy, who's your friend? And who's the one guy that you come runnin' to When your lovelife starts tumblin'? I got the money if you got the honey  Let's cut a deal let's make a plan Who's your daddy, who's your baby? Who's your buddy, who's your man? You might've run on a little tough luck baby Don't you sweat it Everything is waiting inside for you You know I got it So come and get it Who's your daddy, who's your baby? Who's your buddy, who's your man?

October 26, 2002

:( Its going to be a long week without Cat. She left to  take her niece to some kind of fun camp for the week. A WHOLE week, ugh. Talk about going miserable. With David almost never online these days, most RPers gone into reality and doing their own thing..Im still here... Guess you could say that Im pretty.....dependable

October 27, 2002

I think I understand The reason you won't stay with me You think a ring upon your hand Will solve your insecurity So go ahead and play your games If that's what you must do Nothing here remains the same But the way I feel for you I can watch you walk away And I know that I'll get by And I know just what to say But honey I can't tell a lie So figure out what you must do I know you think you're so damn clever You can marry any time you want But a lover is forever I can watch you walk away And I know that I'll get by And I know just what to say But honey I can't tell a lie Figure out what you must do I know you think you're so damn clever You can marry any time you want But a lover is forever You can marry any time you want But a lover is forever Links of the Day: A Dedication to Misty.

October 28, 2002

11:09 Pm ::nibbles on cheez-its::  Nothing much happening yesterday and today, I got pulled over by the cops while driving my friends car. It so happens that her car wasnt registered. I surfed the net today..found some intresting web page dolls, Xena ones..of course :) I will be making a doll page soon... With the ones I found and the ones I really like. Like the one over there :oD Amazing. New Link: Dogs  Don't Have Souls Do they?